Fulfillment

So I was talking with M tonight as we were headed home from getting Oscar's medicine. I've been reading blogs from other friends and their friends...and their friend's friends...and it seems like so many people out there are really truly fulfilled by what they're doing in life.

Some are homeschooling their kids and yet still find time to pick berries and make jam and what sounds like an awesome strawberry lemonade concentrate. Others are child free and seem to have hobbies that fulfill them or give them something outside of themselves to perfect and enjoy.

M theorized that becoming fulfilled is easier for extroverts. That they find accomplishment in "outside" things. Not just outside the home but outside themselves. That for an introvert, it's more difficult because to be fulfilled, they need to not only be fulfilled outside of themselves but inside themselves as well.

I'm not sure if I agree with everything that M is saying. But, I have to say that the more I think about the "being fulfilled outside as well as inside [myself]" I can see where he's coming from. I know that, for me, just doing things to be doing them doesn't satisfy me. I want to take something away from the experience or I feel like I've just wasted my time.

But...then the question becomes, "what do I want to do that will fulfill me in a way that nurtures my inside as well as my outside needs?"

And that, my Whiners, is where I get bogged down. I'm STILL working on this dang 101 in 1001 list and...well...it's really going nowhere. I'm feeling so apathetic about things lately. I just don't care and...well...that's not good.

I'm tired of not caring about things. I want to care again but I feel like it's just too much trouble for not enough pay off. And dang it, I'm tired of feeling like that too.

How do you do it? How do you make yourself care again? How do you find just the thing that makes you feel fulfilled? How do you make your life meaningful again?

'Cause, let me tell you, I just ain't feelin' the meaningful.

Happy Blog day to me!

Heh...so here it is, Year 2 of my blog.

Where will I go? What will I do? Who will I be when this year ends and year 3 begins?

I wrote some time ago about the meme 101 in 1001. I've been stuck somewhere in the 80s and can't think of other things to put on my list so I've been putting off posting it.

Well, I'm going to take some time tonight and give it a total look see and try to figure out some other things. After that, (tomorrow) I'm going to post it and my start date. (tomorrow maybe. *G*)

Let's see where I'll be in 1001 days.

Good googly moogly

It's been ages since I've posted. Sorry 'bout that. Not that I'm interesting or anything but, sometimes it's just nice to read something "different". *G*

So, I've been thinking about doing this 101 things in 1001 days thingie that I saw on the internet. Here's a web link for those of you who are scratching your heads. It just seems like a...well neat thing to do. I'm such a list person even though I never really get around do doing what's on my lists. Or I should say I USUALLY don't get around to it. Sometimes I do most of a list and then lose interest.

I guess I'm hoping for motivation for this. One of the "rules" is that your list items must be complete and realistic goals for your life. Meaning that you have to actually sit and THINK about them, you can't just write "declutter". Declutter what? Where? How often? Those types of questions.

And I've always been one to steer away from "those" types of questions when I'm making a "to do" list. I never get very specific.

M says, in his "joking" manner, "impossible! You'd have to do like one thing every ten days!" LOL that's sort of the point hon.

I'm tired of not DOING the things I've been wanting to do. Like learning to bake bread from scratch or planting a kitchen garden so I can have fresh veggies in the spring and summer. Oh I talk about it all the time. I read the books, 'cause of course if it's a book I'll read it, but I never get around to DOING it.

I think the last thing I decided I wanted to learn to do and actually did it was learning to knit. And we all know how far THAT went. I think I've completed 4 or 5 things in the 3 years since I've learned. Well, except for the extremely easy dishcloths. I've accumulated enough yarn to make 50 or so projects, if they're big projects, but I don't DO anything with it. So, I'm going to make that one of my, or maybe many of my, list items.

This just seems like an unique challenge to me. I might even get to the really big things like my weight and the *sigh* house. *G*

That's all for now. Gonna go watch the cats be curious about their new water fountain. I might even take some pictures.